With Angels Wings: A poem

And though the night has fallen

the day so far away

I will guard you from the darkness

no matter what you say

with angel wings I would save you

From the dark and the black

and give you everything they’ve taken

so you would have it back

I would guard you in the daylight

From the falling night

protect you from the hatred

end your sad plight

Free you from the bondage

open your heart again

that you would see I love you

forever and ever AmenGuardian-Angel


The plight of a Journalist: Julian Assange

After almost seven years, five of which have been in the Ecuador Embassy in London, Sweden dropped it’s investigation into the rape allegations against our hero Julian Assange.  However, the British police still want to arrest him on missing a bail hearing five years ago to obtain political asylum from Ecuador. Any other person would be able to pay the fine and be free, but not Julian.  This is because the US would like to expedite him to charge him with espionage over wikileaks involvement with the Manning leaks on Iraq and getting Snowden to Russia to seek asylum for his leaks.  The issue here really isn’t about just Julian though. If it were, the answer would be simple, but it’s more difficult than that.

For instance, if you prosecute Julian for publishing leaks, this sets a precedent for all further publishers to be jailed. Wouldn’t’ it only be fair to press charges against the New York Times and the Washington Post for publishing their recent leaks? This would also enable government to keep secrets and there would be no transparency. If the Feds are given that much freedom, we would escalate into the book “1984” with Big Brother persecuting anyone who tells the truth.

The first amendment gives the right to free speech and free press. Many have said that Julian does not have the rights an American citizen does because he is from Australia. If that is the case, then shouldn’t Australia be protecting him from prosecution?

There are two things at stake here for the American people to consider. First is our 1st amendment rights being violated.  Julian is a messenger, a publisher and has exposed corruption in the federal government.  Doesn’t that make him a hero not a villain?  If we do not have publishers who can release this information to the public, we will never know what kind of shenanigans our CIA and FBI are up to? Don’t you want to know the truth? What would have happened if Richard Nixon would have gotten away with Watergate? Where would this country be if not for the John Podesta emails and the DNC emails being brought to light?

The second thing at stake here is where we draw the line on what our government is allowed to do when it comes to whistleblowers and people like Assange. Where do we draw the line in the sand and say ” Enough is enough.” How much control do we allow our government to have over We The People? Isn’t that what our founding fathers were trying to avoid in the first place? When the government begins to control what you can say and what you an publish, isn’t that tyranny?

It is time we stand up to big government and say, you can’t persecute and prosecute our journalists and publishers. You do not have control over what we read or what we say.  We need to unite as a people and stand up for all whistleblowers and publishers whether right or wrong.  Write your Congressman, write the President, create petitions, and write Jeff Sessions demanding a Whistleblowers Protection Act that also covers those who publish. Stand up for your rights and your freedom before it’s too late.

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She Doesn’t Even Know I Exist: A short story about a serial killer

Warning! Graphic!


Diary Entry June 1st I remember the first time I saw her. She was coming out of the gym, sweat still lathered on her face. I followed her home. I don’t think she saw me, but after that first day, I became a bit paranoid while following her. I don’t want her to see me. Not yet. It’s been two months now, me following her, fantasizing about the taste of her, the smell of her, how it would feel to be inside of her. I watch her from afar. I have broken into her apartment twice now just to watch her sleep. It is intoxicating to know I could do anything as I stand over her, anything at all and she doesn’t even know I exist. I found out today what her name is. It’s Victoria and they call her Tori. She is my victory over loneliness. I stole her dirty panties this morning while she was taking a class at the local college. I want her in the worst way. I want to touch her, I want to give her myself. I want to hurt her too. Part of me wants to hurt her because she would never notice a guy like me. She would call me a “creeper” and laugh. Lots of women have done that to me, and a few have paid for their laughter. I dug through my closet this morning to find my black ski mask. Soon she will be mine forever. I have pictures of her now that I have taken with my digital camera. Some nights the ecstasy of looking at her brings me to a an ejaculation so quickly that it pulls at my chest. Diary Entry June 30th I found a way to watch her shower. There is a small closet next to her bathroom that you can get into via the apartment hallway. A step ladder and the hole I drilled aids me in my endeavors to view her beauty. She is 22. Her long blonde hair is not real. She doesn’t wear lipstick but is fond of strawberry chapstick. She leaves a strip of hair when shaving. How I long to sink my teeth into it. I lick my lips as I watch her undress and ease into the shower. Her breasts are the perfect size. I wonder if she will scream when I bite those. I wonder if she will enjoy it when I pull her hair. Her roots are showing, how I hate that. I want to cut all her hair off. I want to pull it out in handfuls and listen to her scream. I want to maim her for what she is, what she stands for. I am breathing hard at my own fantasies. Tonight at midnight it will the year anniversary of Sarah. Tonight will be the night I make more memories. I have the camera, the knife, the saw in my backpack. When she leaves for class, I will let myself into her home. She will never even know I am there…

Ghosts and Spirits in the Bible

Ghosts and Spirits in the Bible

Are their Ghosts and Spirits in the Bible?

Ghosts and Spirits in the Bible…. Makes me go hmmm, so I decided to start looking through the Word of God. The story of Saul and the witch of Endor made me shudder. I have heard of people who could talk to the dead and I didn’t believe it. The truth is however, if they are doing it is evil and sinful, but this story proves their were dead spirits in the Bible.

A lot of people will argue with you that there is no mention of such a thing in the Bible but there is. Back in the days of Moses, God gave him the commandment to stay away from sorcery and witchcraft. During that time, they were the people who summoned the spirits of dead people and it was a sin. In fact, if you were caught, they killed you. I want to share two stories I found in the Bible about the spirits of the dead.

I Samuel 28:3-20

3Now Samuel was dead, and all Israel had lamented him, and buried him in Ramah, even in his own city. And Saul had put away those that had familiar spirits, and the wizards, out of the land.

4And the Philistines gathered themselves together, and came and pitched in Shunem: and Saul gathered all Israel together, and they pitched in Gilboa.

5And when Saul saw the host of the Philistines, he was afraid, and his heart greatly trembled.

6And when Saul enquired of the LORD, the LORD answered him not, neither by dreams, nor by Urim, nor by prophets.

7Then said Saul unto his servants, Seek me a woman that hath a familiar spirit, that I may go to her, and enquire of her. And his servants said to him, Behold, there is a woman that hath a familiar spirit at Endor.

8And Saul disguised himself, and put on other raiment, and he went, and two men with him, and they came to the woman by night: and he said, I pray thee, divine unto me by the familiar spirit, and bring me him up, whom I shall name unto thee.

9And the woman said unto him, Behold, thou knowest what Saul hath done, how he hath cut off those that have familiar spirits, and the wizards, out of the land: wherefore then layest thou a snare for my life, to cause me to die?

10And Saul sware to her by the LORD, saying, As the LORD liveth, there shall no punishment happen to thee for this thing.

11Then said the woman, Whom shall I bring up unto thee? And he said, Bring me up Samuel.

12And when the woman saw Samuel, she cried with a loud voice: and the woman spake to Saul, saying, Why hast thou deceived me? for thou art Saul.

13And the king said unto her, Be not afraid: for what sawest thou? And the woman said unto Saul, I saw gods ascending out of the earth.

14And he said unto her, What form is he of? And she said, An old man cometh up; and he is covered with a mantle. And Saul perceived that it was Samuel, and he stooped with his face to the ground, and bowed himself.

15And Samuel said to Saul, Why hast thou disquieted me, to bring me up? And Saul answered, I am sore distressed; for the Philistines make war against me, and God is departed from me, and answereth me no more, neither by prophets, nor by dreams: therefore I have called thee, that thou mayest make known unto me what I shall do.

16Then said Samuel, Wherefore then dost thou ask of me, seeing the LORD is departed from thee, and is become thine enemy?

17And the LORD hath done to him, as he spake by me: for the LORD hath rent the kingdom out of thine hand, and given it to thy neighbour, even to David:

18Because thou obeyedst not the voice of the LORD, nor executedst his fierce wrath upon Amalek, therefore hath the LORD done this thing unto thee this day.

19Moreover the LORD will also deliver Israel with thee into the hand of the Philistines: and to morrow shalt thou and thy sons be with me: the LORD also shall deliver the host of Israel into the hand of the Philistines.

20Then Saul fell straightway all along on the earth, and was sore afraid, because of the words of Samuel: and there was no strength in him; for he had eaten no bread all the day, nor all the night.

If you read on, Saul died because of this and the Philistines conquered Saul and Jerusalem. Afterwards, David became the king of Israel.

Praying about this, it was called to my memory the story of the people who died before Jesus coming up from being asleep in their graves and walking in Jerusalem. After killing Jesus on the cross, I bet those Jews were shaking in their shoes. Imagine seeing dead people right afterwards….

Matthew 27:52The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. 53They came out of the tombs, and after Jesus’ resurrection they went into the holy city and appeared to many people.

When Jesus died for our sins and was crucified, he conquered death. All that had been asleep waiting for the Messiah were then able to be released from the chains of death and walked this earth until his resurrection when they went with Him. This raises the question of the ghosts we see today. Are they spirits who wonder the earth until the judgement? Are they ghosts who died so suddenly they didn’t even know they died? Are they sinners bound until judgement day who haven’t received Christ? There is no answer to this question.

There are other spirits mentioned in the Bible, both good and bad. Angels are mentioned and so are demons. In fact, Jesus’ himself cast out many demons in the first four books of the Bible. But Angels and Demons are a subject that needs to be covered in a whole number hub and perhaps a book.

If there was no such things as spirits, I truly believe the Bible would tell us so. The Spirit that always comes to mind for me is the HOLY SPIRIT of God. Without him, I would be lost. He is always present to help me.

So that answers our questions doesn’t it or does it? So, the saints went to heaven with Jesus, but what about now? What about the stories you hear? Have you had an experience with a ghost? The Bible isn’t clear on it. Are these really dead people? Are they echoes from the past? Are they demons? I wish I had an answer for you. I don’t so I will let you decide.

Vampire Origins:I want to suck your blooood

Vampires and their Origins

The vampire as we know it has only been around since the 18th century. However, the idea of a blood sucking demon has been around since the Persian Empire.

There are many names for the vampire. Ancient Babylon and Assyria called it Lilu which was derived from Hebrew demonology and was referring to a demon named Lillith. Greek and Roman mythology had three names for three different kinds called Empusae, Lamia, and the Striges. South Asia has the bhuta and China has the Jiang Shi.

Some believed that vampires come from the story of Lillith which is the Hebrew myth of another first woman other than Eve. Supposedly Lillith said the Lord’s name that was not to be spoken and was cursed. Others believe the first vampires were direct descendents of Cain who killed his brother Abel and committed the first murder and the legends and myths go on and on. The idea of the vampire we think of today was created by Bram Stoker in “Dracula”. In this story, a vampire based on the romanian ruler Vlad Tepes almost seems romantic as he seeks the woman of his dreams to live eternally with him as a vampire.

Other stories of vampires were written by Stephen King, Anne Rice and many others. The Twilight series has become a phenomenon but is entirely based on anything but a vampire.

We do have real vampires nowadays by the way. Fleas are bloodsucking creatures as well as the mosquito and the bed bug. However you look at them, there is a certain quality to a vampire that keep our interest. Perhaps, it’s the sensual idea of having our necks sucked on.


The Truth About the Number 13

why is 13 an unlucky number?

I decided to look this up.  I wanted to know why Friday the 13th was considered unlucky and why people hated using the number 13 in motel rooms etc.  This is what I found….

FIrst off, there were 13 in attendance at the Last Supper and it is believed that Judas Iscariot sat in the 13th seat.  After dipping bread with Jesus, Satan entered him and he went and betrayed Jesus.  Then there were only 12 eating.  Interesting huh?

On Friday, October 13th, 1307, the Knights of the Templar were ordered to be arrested by Philip the fourth for various acts of heresy.  The Knights of the Templar were believed to be Christians. Upon being found of supposed heresy they were burnt at the stake!  Therefore, Friday the 13th was a very unlucky day for those involved.

A recent incident which only makes you wonder is the fact the Apollo 13 was the only unsuccessful mission that tried to land on the moon.

In Norse legend, there were 12 gods having a feast when the god Loki interrupted their dinner.  Loki was the 13th to attend when the god Baldr was killed with an arrow made of mistletoe. His death marked the beginning of the end of everything. Therefore 13 was the unlucky number in that case.

In truth, 13 is just another number.  Superstition has led us to believe it is a bad number.  History has only backed this superstition up.

Why We Must Free Assange

The UK is in breach of an order from the UN in regards to Julian Assange. The conditions he is living in at Ecuadorian Embassy are inhumane. He cannot go outside and lives in a room no bigger than your average small bedroom in the United States. He has been in this room for five years, not including his 2 years in house arrest and in prison in Great Britain. The original inquiry into whether Assange raped two women in Sweden has been dropped and yet, the UK still wants to arrest him. They say he jumped bail to seek asylum but he has a right to political asylum.

Here are several links to follow if you are interested in knowing what is said about political asylum.



Julian had every right according to this law to seek political asylum to avoid extradition to the US. The US government wanted to prosecute him under a hundred year old espionage law for treason.  The question that is raised is that you can’t try a man for treason if he is not a citizen of that country. Julian Assange by rights, is a citizen of Australia which would make him an honorary citizen of the UK.

Many supporters of wikileaks are not loyal. The Democrats in the US loved him when he was exposing the crimes of the Iraqi war and Bush. In fact, the feeling was he was some sort of god and they were outraged by his need to take refuge. Of course he was a hero when he released Snowden’s documents and helped him get asylum in Russia.

That changed quickly when Obama took office and Hillary was Secretary of State however. He brought forward more leaks to show the corruption they were involved in. The Republicans suddenly began supporting him even more during the 2016 election as he released the publication of the Podesta emails sealing Clinton’s fate.

Support of Assange by the Republicans is waning unfortunately because he said we must support all leakers such as Reality Winner. Many are turning against him because they feel she is traitor.  I personally am a loyal follower of wikileaks and Assange. Let me explain why I continually write and fight for his freedom and safe passage out of the UK.

It is one thing for an entire organization to stand against the lack of moral and ethical standards in our government.  Julian chose to do this on his own. One man against the wrongdoing of the world’s governments. One courageous, truthful man who didn’t back down, even when his very life was at stake.  He could’ve chosen to sit back like so many and let his life pass by. He is extremely intelligent and could have become a doctor or a nuclear scientist or used his genius to become rich. Instead, like a superhero he stood against villiany, lies and corruption.

In ten years, wikileaks has never retracted anything they published.  They have exposed truth and fought for justice. Truthfully, it doesn’t matter what political affiliation you are, you must realize what this man has done!  Keeping him in that Embassy is in violation of humanity. It is a criminal act against all of us who value freedom.  Julian is no criminal. He is a publisher, a journalist and the example of what I wish all men were. He is not a god. He is a human being who gave a damn and stood up and fought!

How many of you stand up for what you believe in? How many of you would risk life and limb to see that truth is brought into light and evil is prosecuted and known? Very few.  Military men and women fight for us. Perhaps a firefighter or police officer deserve the title of hero, but the average citizen sits back and enjoys their comfortable life.

Without men like Julian Assange, we would be living in the nightmare written about in 1984.  If we do not stand up and fight for the freedom of press and freedom of speech this man represents, we will lose it and soon the entire world will be ruled by the elite.  The CIA, and other world agencies will begin to rule us with an iron fist. No longer will any of our freedoms be rights, but a memory of the past.

The kindness, heroic courage and truthfulness this man has shown us should be honored and saluted, not attacked or suffocated by others. If we do nothing about his plight, we are as bad as though who seek to destroy our freedoms and take away our way of life.

 The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don’t do anything about it. Albert Einstein

I implore the United States government, President Trump, Jeff Session and government of the United Kingdom to release this man and allow him to once again see his children and have the freedoms that have been taken from him against the laws of humanity.


Death of the Apostles

The Death of the Apostles and What it Means to Christianity

Updated on January 3, 2012
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Jesus washing the Apostle’s feet


How Did the Apostles Die? What does it mean to us?

Many times people forget that the Apostles not only served Jesus Christ and started the Church but they were martyred as well. They were beaten and persecuted and made fun of before their deaths and yet, they kept preaching the Word of God and Christ resurrected. I’ve been asked how each one died on several occasions so I thought I would write about it and my perspective on each death.

We will start with Matthew since he wrote the first book of the New Testament. There was much more to Matthew then just the book He wrote. He was a follower of Christ when being a Christian wasn’t so cool. The leaders of the Jews sought to slay each disciple of Christ for fear they would lose their place in society. After all, did they not crucify our Lord? It was not easy for the disciples of Christ when they were with Him but at least they had our Lord near their side.

Matthew started out his life as tax collector. Being a tax collector in that day meant two things. You knew how to count money and you were hated for collecting it, so Matthew was no stranger to the hatred of others. Another name for Matthew was Levi because that was the tribe of Israel he came from. No one knows his exact age when he became a disciple of our Lord. He was also a witness to the Ascension of Jesus.

After preaching the gospel of Christ, Matthew was slayed with a sword. There isn’t a lot of information on how or why this happened.

Next we look at Mark. Often Mark was known as John Mark in the Bible. He is responsible for writing the Gospel of Mark. He died a martyr as well. Mark was dragged through the city of Alexandria. Imagine dying that way. Now that you’ve thought about that, think about doing it for Jesus. How many of us would deny Christ rather than be dragged through the street until we died?

Luke was a physician. He took care of people before he met and followed Christ. It is thought that not only did he write the Gospel of Luke but may have written the Acts of the Apostles. Luke is rarely mentioned in the New Testament but was martyred in Greece by being hung from an Olive Tree.

John the Apostle is the only disciple of Christ that is believed to die of old age. However, he was boiled in a cauldron of oil and sent to the isle of Patmos, an island full of prisoners. It was there, he had the vision leading to the writing of Revelations. John was also called Beloved by Jesus.

We could spend a whole book writing about Peter. He was an interesting character to say the least and is known as the cornerstone of the Church. Before he received the Holy Spirit however, Peter was known to be stubborn and easily distracted. He was the only disciple to walk on water. He also denied Christ three times at the time of His Crucifixion. Peter was crucified upside down which would be a horrible death.

James was beheaded by order of King Herod. He is the only Apostle whose death is recorded in the New Testament, other than Stephen. He was also known as James the Greater according to the Catholic Church. He was also considered one of the “Sons of Thunder”.

James the Lesser was thrown from the pinnacle of the Temple Wall and was then beaten to death with a club.

Bartholomew was basically skinned alive.

The Apostle Andrew was bound to a wooden cross and preached the gospel until the hour of his death.

Doubting Thomas as he was called because he would not believe that Christ had risen until he put his hands in his wounds was killed with a lance preaching the gospel in the East Indies.

Jude was shot with arrows until he died.

Matthias was first stoned and when that did not kill him, he was beheaded.

Barnabas was stoned to death. Stephen was also stoned to death according to Acts for preaching the resurrection of Christ.

Our beloved Paul, who once persecuted the first church, was tortured on various occasions, chained up, beaten and finally, Emperor Nero demanded he be beheaded.

Now that I have shared these stories, let’s take a closer look at what this means to us now. Had any one of these Apostles denied Christ and refused to preach His gospel, where would be today? Would it even exist? Many more martyrs were killed due to their faith, but what if the Apostles on seeing what happened to Jesus had said, “Enough of this! I’m not going to die for this.”

What if Paul and Peter had made up their minds that they were just going to go about their business rather than take a chance? What if? Few would follow in their footsteps today and die for their faith. Perhaps, we need to take a close look at the Apostles and their examples and then look at ourselves in the mirror…

Would you die for Christ?

The US Government and YOU

Our government is the most powerful one on earth. Some may debate this but it’s the truth. It also has the most corruption, greed and control of anything on earth.  No one in their right mind wants to go to war with the US.  The corruption and greed crosses both party lines and infiltrates even the best people. I think most politicians go in thinking they can change the world and come out with their pockets filled with money and a hunger for more power. Let me explain…

There is something in our country called the Deep State or a shadow government. This is a body of powerful, rich people who use this to their advantage to get what they want done.  Here is the definition of what deep state is:

deep state
 a body of people, typically influential members of government agencies or the military, believed to be involved in the secret manipulation or control of government policy
I think the Bildeberg’s and the Illuminati are part of this deep state but I also believe the CIA is up to it’s butt cheeks in this. They hold the reins and control the government. Black mail, bribes and outright threats are the name of the game and they have plenty of moves in their little sack of tricks.  If you could look into anyone and know everything about them, don’t you think you would find the skeletons in their closet? The deep state uses the skeletons to their advantage to manipulate and control.
I believe when the CIA formed, we the people lost any power we may have once had. I believe the families of the Illuminati planned on taking over power here. People generally aren’t hard to figure out. Find out what motivates them and you can control what they do. That’s really what the Central Intelligence Agency does.  Whether it’s the love of money, trying to keep something secret or protecting their families, they know how manipulate anyone they want to.
This is scary and you should be terrified.  Knowing that the CIA could even be watching every move you make should not only upset you but put you on your guard.
Recently, wikileaks and Julian Assange published a series of leaks concerning the Deep State and the CIA called Vault 7.  In these leaks you will see how the government spies on you through every computer you own and how the government even can control your vehicle in order to make it crash. Don’t believe me? Go to wikileaks.org and find out for yourself.
The only thing we can really do is expose this hidden evil and work to put the darkness into the light.  We need to educate ourselves and be on the look out for things the government is hiding from us. When we do see something that is wrong, we need to report it.  Not to the MSM, because they are also run by the deep state, but to appropriate organizations such as wikileaks or an independent news organization like InfoWars.
In conclusion, ask yourself this question…
Are you watching your television or is it watching you?

Supporting Wikileaks and Julian Assange

Fact: 90% of people who read wikileaks documents do not support them financially or via petition.  On twitter alone, WL has over 2 million followers. Out of those 2 million a petition written to support Julian and other journalists only received 1800 signatures.  People, you want the truth but don’t want to have to stand up for those who give it to you! I am disgusted!

Most of the journalists risk life or limb to bring you what they do, especially those affiliated with Wikileaks.  If you can’t donate a few dollars to help them with legal fees or sign a petition, something is wrong with you.  DO you pay for internet access to read those files?  

Are you afraid of repercussions?  Are you afraid that your John Henry is going to get you in trouble? By the way, you have a Constitutional right to support Freedom of Speech and Press which is covered under the First Amendment.  Our founding fathers didn’t fight for freedom for nothing.

It’s so easy to say “Yeah I agree with what they are doing” and sit back in your comfort zone and watch the world go by isn’t it?  Personally, I am going to write my Congress people, write the DOJ and the President until something is done. I am going to start petition after petition until Assange and Wikileaks are vindicated.  You can go ahead and spend your life in your cozy recliner, but I am going to fight!